Today was a long day. I posted briefly about having a nasty panic attack fairly early into the day. There was some miscommunication between Mom and myself and it's not her fault, and I'm not sure I have ever been clear in the past about WHY I can't do New Places by myself and why being Lost is instant panic. I gave a bit of context to Mom after stressing that it was absolutely not her fault, and while I was frustrated it was not at HER.
Then we discussed how her doctor's
appointment went on our way to my eye exam. I'm pretty sure this is the
first eye doctor I ever saw, who fitted me for glasses when I was 10.
He looked familiar, his name rings a bell, and I remember some of his
personality quirks (not bad, just different) which for me is saying
something. I don't generally remember people very well, but he seems
familiar and I have no other reason to have that sense of familiarity.
was fitted for contacts, same prescription as before but a new brand of
contacts. Did you know that the same prescription fits differently
depending on the brand? I didn't until I put the first pair in and was
confused that I couldn't quite see clearly or get my eyes to focus. Dr C
made a thinking face, told me to throw that pair away and came back
with a different set, same prescription, after doing a little looking at
one eye and then the other and determining it was not a wrong
prescription issue. Second pair went on fine, I could focus, read the
signs, all was well. So I learned something new today, that fit and
focus vary on brand. That explains why you are supposed to only use the
brand you are prescribed.
I also learned that monthlies are a
better choice for me than dailies. My previous eye doctor prescribed
dailies and told me that I could wear them for up to a month safely
assuming I was cleaning them correctly and changing out my lens case
every month. I told this to Dr C who cringed and asked me to please
never ever do that. So I will be wearing monthly lenses and swapping
them out when I change my lens case every month. I go back in 2 weeks to
make sure these lenses are the right fit and prescription more long
Then I will make sure that I get the name of the brand so
that I can order the lenses online. I have a coupon for one of the local
pharmacies for like 20% off a contact lens order that I would like to
In regards to school, Osaka as ever helped me to get calm
and think clearly and make reasonable plans to try to get school sorted
out. The school still has not received my transcripts. They could be in
the mail room or sitting on someone's desk but they have not officially
been received and read. So I was told that I could submit the unofficial
transcripts in the short term so that I can apply for the right
classes, with the understanding that the official ones need to be in by
September 12th. I also need to bring a copy of my GED for them, which I
think I have saved as a PDF on my hard drive so that is theoretically
The hard part will be trying to log into my old school to
get my unofficial transcripts. I may have to do some emailing or calling
to get access since I'm not an actively enrolled student. I will deal
with that TOMORROW (Wednesday) and hopefully can print off that and the
GED and run them by the school later this week.
Then I need to
speak to an advisor and determine which courses I should take for the
goal I have in mind, and I can't do that until my transcripts are in (or
the provisional ones at least). So immediate goal is get that done, and
seek an advisor.
I have accepted that it may not be possible to
get everything properly lined up for Fall semester but I am going to try
like hell, and if it doesn't work out then I will at least have things
set up so that I can attend in Spring. That's the best I can do right
now at current stress levels is take it one bite at a time.
When Mom and I finished
up with doctor's appointments we came back home instead of sticking in
Arlington for a few hours until knit night. I was out of spoons and I went
to bed almost straight through the door. I've just woken up, found
something to eat and popped my contacts back in for some night knitting
and maybe a movie or some TV for background noise.