I had momentary panic when I woke having missed a dose of pain medicine and in agony. Then after a the panic settled I remembered that I had similar really nasty pain after my first kidney stone, because that stone tore a damn hole on it's way out.
After the first stone I
went back to the ER about a week and a half to two weeks after I passed
that stone and was reassured that it was normal to hurt (that's part of
why they prescribe more than a few days of pain medication), and that it
could hurt intensely for up to three months.
reassuring but basically keep an eye on things, if I start to bleed, if
pain worsens, or if I have unusual urine I should get looked at. I'm in
about as much pain I was in before going to the ER but not as much pain
as I had while actively passing the stone. So.. I just have to gut it
Thankfully I am not having to juggle school
assignments and work with it this time. I was relating to Mom that I
while passing the first stone I went to work, worked my full shift, went
to school from there, and then went to my morning class the next day
before I emailed my afternoon professor and begged off. I explained to
her that I was actively passing a kidney stone, asked permission to
submit my schoolwork via e-mail, and e-mailed her my ER note from a few
days prior as proof that I wasn't just making excuses. She told me not
to worry about the homework and to go home and rest and she hoped to see
me next class. So, I went home immediately e-mailed her the assignment
and doctor's note (because I listen SO well), and then went into the
bathroom and finished passing the stone over the next three to six
hours. Oh and I was foolish and turned down pain medication so I did all
of that on pure stubborn stupidity. Never again.
really awful, and in contrast I have been mostly on bed rest,
intermittently mobile (mostly to prepare food and eat so I can take my
pain pills), and have really not had much pressure to do anything but
try to rest and heal.
The really tricky thing is going to be how
I do Tuesday. Mom and I have some minor dental work that needs doing,
and I'm basically not able to wear anything but loose pajamas right now
because my kidney is still inflamed, and it hurts to move or wear
anything remotely constricting. I'm wearing a loose T-shirt and athletic
shorts, and have basically not worn proper clothing since we left the
So.. tomorrow I'm going to try and get dressed (gauge my
pain) and see how much that hurts. That will determine how we do things
Tuesday I think.
I'm still mostly eating soft easy to prepare
food (toast, bagels with cream cheese, lots of orange juice, fresh
fruit, instant mashed potatoes) because it takes too much energy to
prepare AND eat food. I've done well with rinsing my dishes, and
emptying the dishwasher, to minimize extra work for Mom.
contrast to me at optimal health I'm eating very slowly. I tend to be
the first one finished eating most of the time, and it's taking me
forever to eat TOAST. It's taking me a half hour to eat a small bowl of
mashed potatoes. It's very frustrating.
I have this incredibly
unrealistic mindset of "I've passed the stone so obviously I'm FINE now.
I should be instantly better right?" and I'm growing increasingly
impatient with my very slow to heal body. If it were a ragdoll, I'd have
thrown it across the room by now in a temper tantrum. It's been what,
less than a week since I was diagnosed with the stone, and it took about
two days to pass it from the ER visit so I'm only 2 days out from a
huge physically traumatic instance and I'm fidgeting and going "COME ON
LET'S GO! I WANT TO DO THINGS!!"
I have to laugh at myself
because I barely have the strength to get up and walk to the restroom or
kitchen and I'm sitting here going "Yeah I feel like crap, and I'm
tired but I'm SO BORED." Not realistic at all.