I'm growing again.

In news of the weird and interesting, I'm fairly certain I've gone up another half-shoe size. It probably happened when I was out of work and not GOING anywhere, which is why I didn't notice, until I was working. I've been slowly (or not so slowly) dropping the weight I picked up on the Lithium and while my ankle was broken and I was unemployed and healing. So it took me a month to realize my discomfort wasn't just that my shoes are nearly worn out, or that I was re-adjusting to walking around and being on my feet so much, but that my shoes were actually too small.

I actually was peering down at my foot the other day and realized it looked odd to me. I've gotten used to my feet looking short and stubby and swollen, and given that this was probably after a long shift of pacing the floors I expected them to look super puffy like flint-stone feet, but instead I saw a longer, flatter foot. Still wide, as they've always been, but more proportionally normal.

I wonder how long my growth has been stunted by my thyroid not working correctly. I think my thyroid being PROPERLY functional, in addition to the testosterone is what has caused my growth. My shoulders don't seem wider than they were, but I've had broad shoulders since I was 13. My hips continue to not look like much like hips, and I continue to lack much of a backside.

Osaka remarked the other day, that in my month(?) of working I have lost enough weight/mass, that I look like a guy in a poorly made fat suit, more than a chubby dude. It's a weird look, but I think it will even out as my body adjusts to this job/re-activity.

I don't think I've gotten taller this time, but it will be interesting to see, next time I see my doctor.

Over the last 5 years, with my thyroid functional most of this time, I have grown 2 inches in height, and my shoe size has gone up several times now. I'm not sure exactly what my shoe size is now, I think I'm a US size 8 mens. I know that last time my feet grew I was pretty frustrated at the time, since I hadn't gotten much wear out of some of the shoes I had bought in the last year and they were in very good condition still. I donated them to Goodwill.

The shoes that are painfully too small now, are my LL Bean size 7 1/2 snow shoes. They are so comfortable and have such great support that they were my every day shoes for almost 2 years. They are worn almost all the way through now because I wore them just about every day. They run snug according to the customer reviews, so when I ordered them, I was actually a size 7 still, but I grew into them, and now I've outgrown them.

It was really weird when I found myself FIRMLY in the Adult Mens show section when I bought my black DCs earlier this year. They are tight and still in fantastic condition, and I should replace them with new shoes that fit correctly as soon as I reasonably can.

This is one frustration that I didn't expect. Who the heck has a growth spurt into their thirties? How long was my thyroid literally holding me back? Why is it suddenly all happening now, in the last two years or so? My testosterone dose has been stable for quite a while now, so was my thyroid just enough out of whack that I didn't know it until Lithium tried to kill it?

I've grown accustomed to being short, and a weird shape, and now everything is kind of evening out, and I'm becoming proportional, and it's really a bit unsettling for me. I'm still short, but my hands look like adult hands. My feet are still small but they are longer, more adult looking feet. It is so confusing.