Photos

Unfortunately only a couple of photos came out nicely but here they are all the same. :) My friend boidragon asked for some pictures of the rainbow shirt, and since I love taking pics of Ichigo (and my other dolls) I'm glad to comply.

This first shot, I took the other day when I was looking after Michael at Christy's. We played dolls together and it was very fun. Ken belongs to Michael. :3


And I took these two tonight. X3



And if anyone has anything in particular they'd like to see, before I pack away the dolls, I'll be happy to comply. :3 Just post in the comments, what you'd like.

Protective Contract

Okay! Today was the second discussion for the divorce and it went alot better. We've drawn up a contract in regards to the cats and my cellphone bill, to protect the kitty boys, and to make sure that my credit won't get completely screwed up if I can't find a job right away. I drew it up myself so it probably doesn't sound too professional but if anyone is curious here it is. I don't know if there is away to place it behind a cut like on livejournal, so I apologize for the HUGE wall of text.

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This is a contract for custody of Owen and Decke, two domestic shorthaired black cats.

The first stipulation is that both be kept up to date on all shots, and on time. If either animal needs to be taken to the vet for emergency care, all parties need to be kept informed. [ ] [ ]

The second stipulation is that both cats must be neutered within six months of the date of mynamehere’s departure to Texas. Store the flight information with this contract for future use. [ ] [ ]

If there is reasonable* reason that the cats must be given up, all parties must be kept informed, before a family or families are chosen. Neither cat may be taken to a shelter and given up there. [ ] [ ]

*Reasonable reason, being that it is no longer financially possible for care for both cats, barring an emergency. Neither cat may be given up simply to move to an apartment that disallows pets. [ ] [ ]

This second contract is in regards to the cell phone bill of mynamehere.

It has been agreed that hisnamehere will pay the bill every month until the contract ends. [ ] [ ]

In the event that the bill is over $100, hisnamehere must contact mynamehere to let her know. In such cases, hisnamehere is to pay up to $100 towards the bill, and mynamehere will pay the remainder. [ ] [ ]

This contract was drawn up on January 28, 2008, and signed on ________________.

hisnamehere _______________ mynamehere _______________ Witness ________________

Both parties will keep a copy, and may upload one or more copies to their computers, and the internet archive of their choice. Either may give copies to lawyers or family for further security. [ ] [ ]

This contract has been drawn up in regards to the upcoming divorce to protect the animals, and to make sure that neither parties’ credit will be further damaged, by breaking a cell phone contract. [ ] [ ]

It should be noted that mynamehere is leaving the joint residence of her own free will, to ease movement, and to prepare for her move back to Texas. She is not being forced to move, or kicked out. [ ] [ ]

Please initial at each [ ] and sign on the line.

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Tomorrow we'll sign it in front of a witness, probably when I go pick up my inhalors from the base pharmacy. And in about a week we'll be talking to lawyers to sort out the rest. I've already talked to him about the small amount of furniture I want to take with me, and he's fine with that. I'll be taking my desk, a coffee table that I keep my doll furniture on, that has some storage in the front, and TV, TVstand, and game systems. Then of course my books and clothes and stuff. But I was most concerned with the electronics.

I'm a little worried that things will get a little hairy once lawyers are involved, so I'm going to see if there is a place through the USO or the church my family attends, that I can stay for a few weeks while all this gets sorted out. I'm not sure yet. I'm still nervous but feeling alot more confident, since I know I'll be staying with my eldest sister when I get back to Texas, and we've already hashed out what she expects of me, and what she doesn't while I'm there.

I'm going to just wait till I get back to Texas to get my driver's license because if all goes smoothly I won't be in Virginia long enough to get my driver's license.

I don't WANT to rush back to Texas but I also feel like that's the only way I'm likely to get control of my life again any time soon.

I'm really going to miss my family here in Virginia, and I feel horrible that I'm leaving and so suddenly. I want to promise you, Christy, and Rissa, that I am going to keep in touch with both of you, lots of phone calls, and chatting online and all. And as soon as I am able, I will come to visit you both, whether that be Christy and I both going to Cali to visit you Rissa, or whether I visit you both seperately. You both and your families have taken such good care of me, and I am not going to throw away the wonderful friends I have in you both.

I don't know.

Anyone know if there is a way for me to look up my GED test scores? I need that information if I'm gonna try to go to college. Hrmm.

Had one of the first "discussions" about the divorce tonight. Expressed some concerns, yelled a little bit. I feel a little bit better but still nervous. As things stand I stand with the most to lose. I have no job, no drivers license, no car, no money, and no marketable skills. I haven't had a job since Nick joined the military almost three years ago. We were trying for kids, and I wanted to be a stay at home mom.

Nick thinks we would have wound up here anyway if it weren't for Ti. He thinks it was just a matter of time. I don't really agree but I'm not sure what I can trust anymore. I'm just really angry at this point. I'm trying to keep it together so I don't get shafted. Alot of my friends think I'm being too easy on them. I don't know. I don't want to screw them over, anymore than I want to be screwed.

I don't know my rights, and I don't know where to look. If things can stay where they are (awkward but not violent) I don't think Nick will completely shaft me. Legally according to Texas marriage laws I'm not entitled to alimony. I can't support myself as is either.

I don't know what to do. I don't want to go home to Texas right now, except for a visit, and even if I did, I don't want to go and have to live with some of my family till I get on my feet. I had to do that once when Nick and I first got married and it was really hard for everyone involved. The job market is even worse now. I do know that the military WILL pay to send me and my things back to Texas, when the divorce is final, or if I want to leave beforehand or whatever. I don't want to leave my cat though and I couldn't take him with me if I did stay with family.

I'm so freaked out right now. I've been having alot of trouble staying calm, and my asthma is stress induced, so I need to make a doctor's appointment and get my inhaled steroid refilled and get more refills for my emergency inhalor.

Rainbow Stripes

Well, I sewed Ichigo a new shirt. I've loved this shirt that belongs to Christy, since I first saw it, and I wanted one for myself, with a slight twist. Mine has rainbow stripes and orange cuffs and collar. :D

You can see her beautiful Souldoll Jinwoo boy modeling it, and playing with Reggie here.

And one of Ichigo wearing it, though it's rather too big for him.

And, the shirt I made! :D

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I great day yesterday, with Christy and Neil and Michael. Ya'll have been so good to me, and I really really appreciate the support. I ended up staying over when I stopped by home to see how things were, and my just being there, triggered a panic/stress/rage attack for myself. I was so angry and confused that I ended up forgetting the stuff I wanted to bring to sleep over. Christy took me to the dollar store near her place and let me pick out some cute (and nicely inexpensive) jammies, and pick up a toothbrush. If it weren't for you guys, I don't know how I'd be doing right now. I kinda wish I'd slept over again, but I needed to figure out what the hell was going on back here. (Confusing messages, hard to read tones of voice when I called).

I know things could be so much worse but I haven't been so angry and hurt since I was 16. I have really calm moments, where I seem to be okay, and then I flip out, and I really don't like it. Right now that mis-diagnosis as Bi-bolar could almost seem correct. Anyway, I'm probably not making much sense. I wanted to post some pictures. I have a mohawk again. I buzzed what I could and Ti was nice enough to clean up the choppy bits for me.







that last picture shows my new sleeping shirt. It says "The Dragon Tail - Poker Room" and I wear it with some red plaid pajama pants. they're both really comfy, and nicely warm. The photo is also a decent portrayal of the expression I've had on my face for the past several days.

Sims 2 - I'm a pirate!

So I finally got Sims 2 back on the laptop, and I've been playing it for a few days now. I get like, wanting to play it alot sometimes, then ignoring it for months. e_e

Anyway, this time I did my Sim looking like I do NOW (except biologically male, and slim) in terms of facial structure and hair. My hair.. is getting long for me. Not quite as long as Cary's (my alter-ego-sim) but it's getting there fast. It looks nicer on him. I feel ugly and like a slob with my hair this long. I was growing it out for Nick.. He never liked it short, and I hate it long. This is about as long as my hair ever gets before I hack it all off.

But I wanted to talk about my Sim. :3 He has a cute little wife, who looks vaguely Asian (to me anyway) and is on his honeymoon thanks to the Bon Voyage expansion. He seems to love the beach, and I bought them a little beach house. It's filled with cute little beach themed nicknacks. I'm working towards them heading back home happy, and ready to be parents. Then when the babies grow into toddlers they'll go on another vacation, to one of their other vacation homes.

I love the silly faces Sims make, and I love custom skins, hair, and accessories. I found a pair of glasses on ModTheSims2, very much like the pair I actually wear, and when I go back to playing after this post, I'll be putting them on Cary. In the mean time, please enjoy a few of my favorite screencaps of Cary and Marie.


This is my absolute favorite one so far, because he looks serious, and seriously sexy, in my humble opinion. It was pure luck to get that shot before he cast his fishing line back out.



Marie is confused by my Pirate antics.

I think at this point she was singing the Sea Shanty with Cary, and gosh do they make silly faces for that!


She really is very pretty especially when she has that sort of calm smiley look about her. I love her skin, hair and eyes.


Spontaneous hug time! There's a decent shot of Cary's pretty much always smirking face. XD He tends to look sweet but like he's laughing at the same time.


You can see that he has my piercings in this shot, and a better look at that smirk. :3 Though I let my eyebrow close up. I miss it.

Oh and the No You! Icon(my photo) is made from him looking particularly fierce during the Sea Shanty. It's basically the song "A pirate's life for me!" translated to Simlish. I love the expressions he makes, during that little song, and this icon suits my current long-term mood. *laughs*

How do I explain this?

I don't know how to explain without going into painful detail. Nick doesn't love me anymore. He wants to legally marry Ti. We're getting a divorce.

That just sounds too plain. It sounds blunt and dramatic. I don't know how else to say it though. I'm not moving out yet. Nor will I be signing the papers for awhile. I want to get my driver's license first and be started in my schooling. I'm gonna become a History Teacher. I won't be going back to Texas, at least for awhile. I'll continue to live here until I can leave and be sure I can support myself.

I'm hurt of course, and angry, but we're going to try to end it on the best possible terms. I can't hate him even if I want to. Or her. I know where the blame lies and I take responsibility for my stupid actions. It's not entirely my fault of course, but neither is it entirely their fault. I'll probably be online slightly less for awhile.

Happy New Year!

So one of my favorite things to do, when I'm having trouble sleeping, is to take silly pictures of myself. Sometimes I really like the way they come out. I used to take lots of pics on my old camera phone. I barely look like myself in this one, but I'm really pleased with it. Neither Ti, nor Nick think it looks anything like me.. but it is.


And, while I was playing with the camera I got a cute one of Ichigo and Reggie snuggling in the doll bed.


And today, I took in the grey thermal shirt, and made a black t-shirt. And then I discovered that the black t-shirt's sleeves are too small and the thermal does not fit well underneath it.


And because I found this little bear, that Christy (

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And cause he's adorable, one of Reggie brushing his hair outta his eyes, and waving to the camera.


And, AND, because it was funny Reggie holding my cold medicine. I opened it before I realized it was too late to take it if I'm gonna take my NyQuil in about an hour.


And wait WAIT, just two more! Reggie sitting in June and Christian's laps. :D They were all dressed the same when I was over there two days ago and they looked cute all together. June and Christian and brother and sister and belong to Christy and her brother

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