NERVES.

I'm anxious, nervous and excited. So much so that I'm nauseous which could either be my migraine returning with a vengence, hunger, or.. actual nausea. Stress makes my insides to unhappy things.

In positive news I've gotten several calls for 1st interviews in the past couple of weeks, and one of those resulted in an actual job offer (at Lowe's), confirmed yesterday when my pending drug results came in. I expected to fail the drug test because of some of my medications and told my interviewer so. She pushed back my start date (to Tuesday the 31st), just in case that did happen, so that I could coordinate with my doctor's office and the drug test office, but it ended up being unnecessary.

So, now I am a bundle of nerves. I've stayed up all night reading threads on Den of Angels and trying not to be flung in either direction (MANIC SPENDY or anxious depression). It's easy not to be spendy when I don't yet have a paycheck to blow. On the other hand catching up in the Volks MSD, Luts Kid Delf, and Bluefairy Tinyfairy discussion threads with all of the beautiful owner pictures has lengthened my extended wishlist somewhat.

One of the heads I want was the Luts 2014 winter event kid delf head.. which there are two of on the marketplace for $50 and $55 shipped in the US respectively. I could theoretically swing that if I were working already, and I think it would work better than all the heads I was poking at to be my Pokemon trainer kid. I believe this is the Unicef donation head that Luts had up. I will want Osaka to look at the heads to confirm, but I think this is the case, and I saw a couple of them with faceups on bodies in the Kid Delf discussion thread and it is the right sort of young looking cutie to be a fresh faced pokemon trainer.

I'm wanting to get out with Osaka today but I don't have specific plans in mind. I think we will wait and see what the weather brings. x_x I was going to go to the post office to send off the eyes back to Dollmore but I think I would rather do that on Monday to keep myself occupied for part of the day.

I don't think I posted about it hear, but my Dollmore order arrived and while some of it was absolutely as expected, all of the eyes were.. not damaged per se, but not up to snuff. I had ordered two pairs of identical black eyes, one pair for Osaka, and one pair for myself, and also the dark purple eyes for Crunchy. Of the four black eyes, no two were alike. They were all roughly 16mm, but the iris size, dome shape, and even intensity of color varied too much to have even one matched pair. Crunchy's eyes have a defect at the edge of one of the irises, and the whites look marbled (same as the black eyes). I've tried the eyes in his head, and it's possible with care to hide the defect but I'm not happy about it. I looked around to a bunch of different sites and no one makes anything remotely close to what I wanted for him so.. I'll be keeping that pair defect and all, but not happily.

Dollmore has been great about it, but I'm not in a hurry to cut short a day out with my best friend with work starting back up, so I'd rather mail the eyes back to Korea on Monday partially to distract myself.

I expect I will be an anxious mess until Tuesday afternoon when I have orientation. It's supposed to last four hours according to the person who interviewed me. I miss working, and I'm so tired of looking for work, and this feels like a good move but I'm so damned nervous. I don't want to screw it up, and I'd like to do well enough to be offered a more permanent position when the seasonal position is up, but I'm worried because I thought I had worked well for Target and they let me go.

On the positive side, the seasonal position is supposed to end first of August so, in theory if I do things correctly I could start fall classes at college when this ends, even if they decide to keep me, because my hours would be cut after the seasonal period.

I am all nerves. I need to see when I can start wearing shorts seasonally according to dress code, and trim or hem up my jeans since dress code says no distressed bits, and the bottoms of my jeans are ragged. I can wear jeans and a t-shirt, or khakis, or whatever as long as it looks neat.

I need better habits for calming myself. =_=;;

YOU CAN NOT CURE MIGRAINES. AT ALL.

If one more person posts a "Holistic cure" for mental illness, migraines, etc, I think I am going to scream and go off on them.

Yes eating healthy and exercise are fantastic for health, both physical and mental. No, lemon juice and salt will not CURE MY MIGRAINE. I do not take medicine for fun. Yes migraine meds make me feel like crap. You know what feels worse? An honest-to-god migraine.

I think that people trying to cure migraines with lemon juice and salt have never had anything other than a severe headache. I would rather bash my head against the wall than take meds if I can avoid it, but I am on medication for a reason. It WORKS.

There is no CURE for migraines. There is no CURE for Bi-Polar disorder. There are treatments. NOT CURES. STOP IT.

Properly Introducing Joey! (Also stupid Gundam photos)

Osaka was able to get Joey painted up for me on I think Friday night? I am so pleased with the results.

I also finished up my BearGGuy Gundam kits and decided to do a silly photostory.

Orion - Batchix Machina Gamma
October - Luts Tiny Delf Alice
Joey - Asleep Eidolon Spearmint























I just kind of took a bunch of pictures without any dialogue in mind. So.. fill in the blanks I suppose. :)

Knitting update with photos. :D

I've been knitting! Some blatantly doll stuff, some less blatantly doll stuff.

First in order of completion, I made a beautiful (if I do say so myself) reddish scarf for Ed. This was my first project using a waffle knit stitch pattern and I really like it. I might go this route for a full sized Rory-scarf at some point.


Ed still needs some black trousers and a shirt like this in black (and a better faceup) but the scarf is ACES. He seems quite pleased and I love how it looks and fits him.

Second I made a pair of hand warmers for Crunchy, whose body is incoming. In transit are his eyes, wig, a basic outfit, and a pair of tennis shoes, and his body is on order from Luts. He will be ready to go just as soon as he has a faceup, which can be done just as soon as his wig and eyelashes arrive in the Dollmore order that is currently in transit.


Crunchy's mitts are modeled by Zephi, with whom he shares hand size and sculpt. They will be on the exact same body, in different skin tones. The mitts also match the scarf that I made for Jessie (Narsha) when she lived with me. I just need to figure out where I put that scarf. I think it's in the closet with a bunch of the MSD scaled props.

Then I made a series of squares with the intent of making Robbie a knitted blanket/quilt/something.

I started with one titled: All My Exes Live in Texas:


'Cause they do. Even ones I dated that used to live elsewhere, live in Texas now. It's like MAGIC. 8D

R is for Robbie (or Rory) it's good enough for me!


And with this I was aiming for a pop of color but what I got was OH GEEZ I'M BLIND, so I will need to make a few more bright squares to balance it out. It's supposed to be cat paw prints but I think it looks like a Trans Bear Pride flag. :P


The colors aren't quite right for either so I'm sticking with CATS YAY! BRIGHT COLORS YAY! Plus neither of those descriptions suit Robbie (his character is neither Trans nor a Bear).

I have been working on a Dragon square for the blanket for about a week but I got about maybe a fifth into it and realized it was for one, oversized, by far too much to fudge, and two, that I didn't have enough yarn in the tiny skein I was using to finish the block, beautiful as it would have been. So I angrily frogged it, and made a quick little knit instead.

A hat titled: Strawberry Confetti Hat, for my little Spearmint who is not yet faceupped. He's sealed but there have been extenuating circumstances that have prevented faceups for several days. So, I tried to match it for the one I made for October.


The yarn was thicker, so I did less rows and it turned out a little bit smaller, and also October claimed it. e_e;; So Joey gets the blue and yellow hat instead.

I have a ton of sewing that I need to do, and more knitting I'd like to do, but I think I'm gonna quit on the squares for a little bit because quick knits make me so much happier. I like cranking out something in an evening, whether it's some mitts or a hat, or something else. I do love my tiny detailed scarves and all, but sometimes you just need something quick and easy to clear the brain-fog.

Dolls and stuff.

So I unintentionally left everyone hanging since my last post. @_@ I did go to the job interview and explained the distance and was pointed back to the website and advised to apply directly to the stores in the town I live in, as they ARE hiring. They did say that they would be happy to re-schedule my interview in the event that I couldn't get a position with the one in Virginia Beach. I have applied and am waiting to hear back.

I also took a bunch of photos of Robbie yesterday. It was nice playing with him and I realized he really doesn't have much in the way of clothes, and I need to remedy that.

I have made two additional doll purchases since my last post, both for hands. I placed and order with Volks USA for the hands that I've wanted for Robbie since I got him on a body, and also nabbed a pair for Osaka's Oliver since they've been out of stock for like EVER, and we both wanted this particular pair.

Then today after a little bit of back and forth with FunnyLori I decided to order some Tiny Delf fists for October in hopes that I could get the shirts over his hands with those, and found that while Luts is willing to combine orders, they will not let you buy something less than $10 on its own. So I ordered the fists, the scissor hands, and a pair of eyelashes and have contacted them to combine the orders. If they choose not to, I will cancel the second order and get the hands at a later date. I'm not too worried about the color matching since Zephi and October are a year apart and IDENTICAL in coloring.

The first pictures I took of Robbie were for photo reference of his tattoos, and then I took pictures of all the glasses I have in that size, then just a couple for fun. :D






Each of Robbie's tattoos represents one that I have. I have a rainbow star on my back, a phoenix on my arm, and a furry cat on my leg. He has a colorful star on his back, an eagle(?) on his arm, and a dragon on his leg.





The plastic glasses were from Dollmore, and the metal ones were from Aileen Doll.



Remember when I worked at Home Depot? There was this promotional little mini apron generally used for work displays and stuff, but I managed to get one to keep for myself. This was WELL before Robbie had a body but I hoped it would fit him one day and it does, quite well. :3




I thought I took more photos but I spent much of my time carefully re-organizing his little chest of clothes. I need more so I can split his stuff from the other SD sized stuff. Some stuff is communal, some is his, some is Rowans, some Avery's. I'd like them each to have their own special box for their items eventually. Nice decorative and functional boxes that can store lots of clothes and shoes and accessories.

A bunch of things.

Well, I have a job interview tomorrow for 10am at Lowe's in Chesapeake. On the one hand I'd like the job because I need work, but on the other hand it's a 2 hour+ commute. It would be about a half hour if I drove, but I don't so.. I'm stuck with figuring bus schedules. I looked up how long a walk it was supposed to be and it said something like 4 hours so I'm not going to do that.

In doll related news, Spearmint has a name. I've decided on Joey, but I'm not yet sure if it's boy Joey or girl Joey. I'm waiting to see how it looks with a faceup which I'm hoping Osaka/Allister will be able to do today. The weather is supposed to be warm and dry for the majority of the day.

In addition to settling on a name for the new kid, I've also received my tax refund as of Tuesday morning, and have placed the order for Owen my Crobidoll Tori, a TTYA order for clothes for him and Crunchy, a Mint on Card order for his eyes and a pair of jeans for Robbie, and a Luts order for a Normal Skin Kid Delf Type 3 boy body (like Zephi's) for Crunchy. I also got an inexpensive pair of sneakers for Joey from the same shop I got October's orange tennies from.

That's everything I intend to get with my tax return except for a new pair of waterproof shoes from LL Bean, and maybe an eye exam and new contacts. I need to see where I stand financially if I get the job, and whether I can swing that kind of commute on a daily basis.

Osaka was working with an hour commute each way when she was at the daycare, and it just about killed her. I don't know if I can deal with being on the bus four hours out of the day with a full shift (or worse a short shift) in between.

I'm not going to turn down an interview though. I may ask if there are openings at the Virginia Beach location if they express interest, and explain that it's a 2 hour commute to Chesapeake via the bus, and a 15 minute bus ride to the Virginia Beach location.

Ugh. I am not looking forward to this. I hate job interviews but I desperately need the work AND I really don't know if I can manage a commute like that. x_x;

I also woke up at half past 1am with a migraine and tossed and turned for 2 hours before I crawled out to the living room and curled up on the sofa, where I still didn't sleep. =_=

I'm tired of all this. I just want to work a reasonably paying job within a reasonable walking/bus distance.

Doll Arrival! :D

Exciting things today! With some of the money from the sale of Efreet, I purchased a surprise doll on the lower price scale. It shipped earlier this week, and arrived today via FedEx. I love instant gratification!

I've loved this sculpt since I saw it in person but it was discontinued for lack of love and while there were some blank ones still in stock I waffled for awhile. I decided though that I should just go for it, and get one while Mint on Card still had it in stock, and I'm glad I did, because it was the very last one. So.. last of this sculpt ever to be sold (new). Magic!

Anyway here are my box opening photos. I was REALLY excited but I managed to get some decent non-blurry photos! :D I got the wig and shirts I purchased for the new doll on hand first. Eyeless, wigless, faceupless doll photos forthcoming!






I love the design on the box! I love seeing all the beautiful designs on the different company boxes. :)




And the secret is out! It's a ..thing. These little ones aren't gendered so I will have to determine whether it's a boy or a girl once Osaka/Allister is kind enough to give the little one a faceup. :D




Plenty of bubblewrap, and a nice soft pillow with ribbon ties to protect the little one.



Surprise eyes! Mint on Card's page said they don't come with eyes if you don't get the faceup so I wasn't expecting any. I have glass eyes in the mail (they should arrive Monday).



Another surprise! My certificate of Authenticity is blank. XD I will contact Mint on Card (or compare mine with Osaka/Allister's) to see how it's meant to be filled out.




That little face! Cute even without faceup, eyes, or wig! And the posability is just amazing. I would be thrilled to get a couple more of the 16cm Asleep Eidolon babies.



All the swag! :D We are not as prepared as I might have hoped since the glass eyes aren't here yet, and I haven't yet made pants but yes. :3



Cute sitting on the edge of the box. THAT FACE. @3@



And next to October (Tiny Delf). October looks slightly larger but it's the other way around actually. October's shoes are giving him even height, and he is narrower in the chest, with slightly larger hands. New kid is broader in the chest ever so slightly, with more delicate looking hands, and just slightly more realistically proportioned.

It was at this point I carefully popped off the head and tried on the shirts I bought from FunnyLori's Etsy shop (fit for Pukifee) and found that TinyDelf and Asleep Eidolon 16cm are just THIS much too large to fit into the shirts. It's the thumbs. Their hands won't go through the end of the sleeve.

I was sad, and mad at myself for assuming, but most stuff sized to Pukifee and Lati Yellow will actually fit Tiny Delf just fine so I assumed this would be the case. I did not take into account that FunnyLori fit them specifically to be a nice snug fit on the Pukifee body (and even says so in the listings), and those hands pop off magnetically I think making the hands not fitting a non-issue.

It's okay though. Mom has some actual Pukifee so I'll ask if either shirt is to her taste, and if not, they will be set aside until I do have a Pukifee, because at some point I will. Probably a Pong. They're VERY well made shirts and I will continue to buy from the Etsy shop, but I will make sure that I'm buying for the specific size that I actually have. :)

I've also talked to FunnyLori about maybe buying some made special to fit my new doll after the Expo, so I will still hopefully have my striped teal and purple shirts in the size I need. :)

So all in all I am thrilled with my new little one. I need to try on the wig because when the shirts didn't fit I just went to sleep (I hadn't slept yet).

I also need to draft patterns for leggings or pants to fit this slightly larger body, and make a slightly larger shirt pattern to fit it. I have tweaked October's shirt pattern since the first shirt I made had oddly tiny arm holes, and I'm hoping that that pattern (with a slightly wider chest) will be perfect.

I'm too tired to sew tonight though and I have knitting I need to do. Collectively in the last 48 hours I've gotten roughly 10 hours of sleep and it's wearing on me a bit.