It has dipped into more consistent cooler weather in the last week or two. I'm actually hoping for a severe for Texas winter because I just can not deal with our two seasons (hotter than hell, and maybe cool enough for a hoodie or jacket for a couple of hours).
temperature overnight was 42F so at the risk of triggering a heat wave I
put my flannel yeti sheets on my bed, and layered some blankets. I
discovered my comforter is in a box somewhere in Tennessee cushioning
fragiles. I do have another duvet bit it needs a cover. I think Mom and I
may hit some of the consignment stores and look for one. I don't want
to pay full price for what may be temporary protection for the duvet.
I went to Grandparents and Special Friends day at the school of my
niece and nephews in Fort Worth. They attend a lovely school and we got
to visit their classrooms and see each of them for a bit. It was really
Oldest nephew got to show a fun scientific display, and show us his classroom.
nephew read to us in the library and performed in his immersion Spanish
class play of The Three Little Pigs. He was the Fox which they had
instead of a wolf.
Youngest niece (on that side of the family,
though oldest child in her immediate family) took part in a quiz game
with her class and it was fun. Visitors were encouraged to cheer them on
which we did.
In a completely different direction I am dreading
Thanksgiving. I'm looking forward to seeing almost everyone, and I'll
prep for migraines and everything I generally prepare for but I'm
incredibly anxious about interacting with my father.
I don't talk
about him much. Several years ago (late 2008) he had a series of big
strokes and nearly died. Scans showed scarring indicative of longer term
damage from older smaller strokes which explains the series of
personality changes he has gone through as far back as I can remember.
The person he is currently physically resembles the man I called father
but the line is drawn there.
I'm increasingly anxious knowing
that his current personality likes to poke at soft spots and claim
ignorance. I broke down in tears and begged my mother last night to
please pleased have my back when/if he started in on me about my
ex-husband or transition or pronouns.
I'm already suicidal this
time of year and I just can't handle interactions with him. I will be
expected to at least greet him but I imagine since I've been gone the
majority of the last 10 years he will try to corner me to talk and I
I want to live. Honestly I do. I just can't sit there
any listen to him ask me if Ex and I are going to try to work it out
(the divorce was final in 2009), and then blatantly ignoring any
response and jumping into telling me why I'm wrong about (insert any
topic here, literally anything). I also have learned from reliable 3rd
party sources that he is misgendering me and "correcting" family members
that are using my correct legal name (as opposed to my birth name) and
correct legal pronouns (as opposed to assigned at birth pronouns). That
is probably the biggest source of anxiety. The poking at the marriage
and why we didn't have children (we tried, we couldn't) that hurts
enough but poking at the only red angry soft spot I have left is exactly
the sort of thing he will do, because he's been doing it to me since
well before the strokes, and he's been doing it to my sisters for at
least since late 2008. One of them refuses to be alone with him because
of how he intentionally gets under her skin, and I do not blame her in
CHANGE OF SUBJECT~!
Friday Logan dropped off
my preordered Pokemon Moon while Mom and I were in Fort Worth, in
discreet packaging to prevent theft, and I have been playing it almost
I went with Litten to start with, but once Bank
is enabled I am planning to bank all my progress and restart unless I
have been able to procure a copy of Sun between now and then. Right now
I'm about halfway though going on the Z-crystals I have, and where I'm
at on Island 3. There's one more proper island, still lots to do on the
one I'm on, and a man made island which I expect will be a plot-point.
My pokemon are hovering between level 45-53 which is dangerously close
to the "not gonna listen" point, so I'm hoping to breeze through the
last challenges on this island and unlock my next chunk of levels that
will listen to me.
So far I like the way the character
customization plays out. You get access to the salon and some clothing
pretty early on, and it looks like unlike X and Y, the store inventory
stays the same, so I can buy all of one store and not have to go back
and check every day for new items there. Right now my character has a
short blond hairstyle, brown eyes, and light tan skin, and a green,
white, and black outfit.
Serebii doesn't have much information
yet so I'm googling because there are a few people who got early release
copies or did speed runs to get information out there for us. Serebii
has some information but mostly if I have a question I'm googling it.
Some of my questions don't have answers yet. Some do, and I've noted
them and moved forward.
I initially saved and quit to change my
sheets and have a sandwich but now I'm considering sleep. I am running a
load of laundry (the sheets that were on my bed, and whatever was in
the basket) and have a timer so I know when to get up and go put that in
the dryer. My tentative plan is to stay awake long enough to transfer
to dryer, ensure the load is dry, sort, and put away the laundry and
THEN sleep. That means I would be awake another two hours minimum. I was
overheated after I changed my sheets but now I'm back to my normal
temperamental swing between comfortable and slightly too warm or too
My only firm plans for this week are MAYBE Knit Night
tomorrow, definitely Thanksgiving with family in Fort Worth on Thursday,
and Friday here in Garland with Mom and Faythe. Black and Blue Friday
is a tradition of working on the house the day after Thanksgiving and
avoiding the shopping crowds. I may skip Knit Night this week to save
spoons towards Thursday.