Hmmn.

So, I saw a Psychologist today Dr W, who listened and asked questions and then very kindly and politely explained why I was diagosed bi polar in my teens, why it was and is a correct diagnosis, and how my symptoms differ from some of the other conditions I thought it might be.

I'm still really upset by the diagnosis. Bi polar disorder is a terrifying mental disease, there is no cure, no guarenteed treatment. I was hoping it was a mistake and that I'm just exceptionally neurotic.

I have a followup with a Psychiatrist Dr T, to discuss treatment options, for May 7th. It was stressed that I MUST take my meds, and that it is important to discuss changes rather than just deciding they don't work and discontinuing treatment. Fair enough since that's totally what I did in my teens..

I'm scared, angry, worried, and maybe a bit hopeful.