Today has been amazing. It's Osaka's birthday which USUALLY goes terribly. The day started off on a bit of a rough start with Ringo throwing a tantrum about properly brushing his teeth.
left for my appointment with Dr T, and somehow was there an hour and a
half early. I had subtracted time from the commute since I was there an
hour early last time and I have no idea what happened. I think I might
have walked faster. I was pretty anxious. By the time my appointment
started (20 minutes late) I was in a full blown panic attack.
T was really nice. He has some other TG patients and is well educated
in those issues as well as the bi-polar, depression, anxiety and other
factors. I was expected a middle-aged, soft in the middle, soft-spoken
man, and instead met a YOUNG tall, good looking, polite and articulate
man. He threw me off a few times with some of his questions and comments
but in a way that put me at ease.
Dr W was very nice, but I was
still pretty nervous and upset when I left, despite his best efforts. I
was actually in a pretty good place today after speaking with Dr T.
addressed my concerns over anti-depressants. He also told me that Xanax
was about the worst anxiety med possible for me and to discontinue use
immediately. Xanax is why I've had anxiety dreams, increased panic
attacks, and horrific mood-swings for the past two weeks.
He has prescribed Lithium and Seroquel for now, and requested blood-work and an EKG.
also told me that he can see why I was diagnosed as bi-polar going on
Dr W's notes, but that he thought there was probably something else
going on, maybe as well as, maybe instead of. We're hoping to clarify
that with the blood-word and EKG, or at least that was the impression I
Some of the questions and comments threw me off and
delighted me were as follows. The first of which was telling me that I
was a good looking man, and that he was excited to meet me. I laughed
kind of awkwardly and asked what he meant and he smiled and repeated
that he'd been excited to meet me since he'd seen my file. So that was
fun. Then later in the background Q&A he paused and asked "Were you a
pretty girl?" to which I responded "Well yes, of course!". I'm sure
there is no doubt of my vanity. :P He also complimented my beard and
said he wished he could grow one like that.
I'm nervous yet
about being on anti-psychotics, but I know that I can't get better if I
don't actually try the treatments so I will take them. So, after a short
day at work, I went to the pharmacy at Target to fill them, and pick up
a new rescue inhaler. I also went by the toy section since generally if
I have to visit the doctor I buy myself a treat. I didn't find anything
for myself but I did find a little Rarity plush for Osaka! And in
amazing serendipitous luck, Osaka actually found not one, but TWO Deuce
Gorgons at the Target near where she works, one for her, and one for me,
because she is AWESOME like that. So I did still get a pretty freaking
awesome treat for doctor visit.
We (Osaka and I) actually ended
up on the same bus home for the evening, so we scooped Ringo up and went
out for a nice birthday dinner at San Jose! Dinner was awesome, until
suddenly there was what felt like chip stuck in my teeth. It was
actually critical tooth failure much to my distress. Luckily I do have
good dental insurance. So tomorrow I will be hunting trying to get into
somewhere for an emergency dentist appointment. Trying not to think
about that, like at all.
But then we came home and there was a
box on my bed~ My (very early) birthday gift from Steve arrived! I did
open it (cause I could not wait until July, seriously), and was
delighted. I knew what was coming because he ordered it for me while we
were on Skype the other day, but I am delighted none-the-less. I got the
Sunshine Hello Kitty, with the Harajuku hoodie. <3 and="" because="" br="" crazy="" dark="" i="" in="" it="" lemonade="" m="" magical="" my="" no="" pajamas.="" pictures="" pink="" raspberry="" s="" she="" soft.="" super="" this="" yet="">
I hope everyone else had a nice interesting day. @_@3>