Juggling cats.

The other day, I'm not sure exactly when, Mom misheard an analogy as "juggling cats" which feels unfortunately rather accurate.

I'm currently trying to find local doctors, schedule appointments, and get ready for school all at once and it's kind of a lot to do at one time. I'm feeling overwhelmed.

I've contacted a local group that works with the LGBT community but I think my initial message was confused, as the response I got was about putting me on a wait list to be seen for hormone replacement therapy, which is about seven years too late. I'm just trying to find a new primary care physician before my prescriptions run out. I'm running into walls. I am so very very tired as a result and my body is not letting me sleep properly.

Today I fell asleep at Mom's office, in a chair down in the foyer. Tuesday is knit night, and I ride with Mom to her work place and hang out in the foyer until we pick up Faythe in Arlington after work and head over to knit night. Today I had a migraine, and my body decided I needed sleep, so I fell asleep in public which is actually a huge phobia of mine. I'm terrified that someone will either hurt me or rob me.

And now it's about 4am and I am wrung out. I want to sleep but I don't know if I can or for how long.

Summer Heat and Creative Quandries

July has been migraine hell. The air conditioning works best between the hours of 8pm and 11amish. Otherwise it hovers about 80-85F. The temperature set is 73F. I am slowly adjusting to the heat but I've been heat sick pretty much constantly since arriving. I can get stuff done at night but not a bunch because I have to be ninja-quiet so Mom can sleep. I was SUPER productive the first week especially because Mania, and desperation to get things in order.

Since we got a second dresser from a family in Mom's church, I've been able to slow down slightly. The dolls are unpacked, the bookcase is full, my TV and gaming systems are set aside, ready to be hooked up and used. I have a folding table for crafting/sewing, and am kind of in limbo waiting on a few different things to get MORE done.

I got some new command adhesive strips so I can hang some art. I will need a few more clips, and to move all the dolls so I can put up two shelves. One is a sturdy wooden shelf, and one is a long narrow piece of glass (tempered I think) that needs a light dusting but would make a nice narrow knickknack shelf. I haven't figured out yet how I'm going to put that one up.

I'm also waiting on a small package from Osaka which will contain the power cord for my TV, and the bed risers that she doesn't need anymore (same type as what I got) which will fix a couple things. I'm planning to connect the bed risers with carriage bolts to each other, and one at the top that will screw directly into the narrow bottom of the metal bed frame. This will essentially give the metal frame solid STURDY wooden legs, reinforced with carriage bolts down through them. I'm planning on doing it up like this:




Functionally this also gives me ample storage under the bed for some of the bins and boxes that I have and need to be able to access but also store away at regular intervals.

Ideally I want to get art on the walls, but I want to get the doll shelves up first, and that means I need to figure out a safe way to put up the narrow glass shelf. It's maybe 4 inches deep, and I haven't measured length. I'm not sure I can find shelf stands the right size anywhere. I want something fairly discreet. I could do wood, with a little ledge grooved down carefully to hold the shelf or something if I painted it. I'll see what I can find.

Once the shelves are up I can see how much space I have left to work with on the doll wall, and go from there.

Good Tired. I'm probably forgetting things.

Oh BOY did I get a whole lot done today! This morning started with a brief trip to Carrollton with Mom and two of my sisters so they could get their quilt block for this month, and then we came back, and my brother Logan and his wife Mel came over and helped us unload my new (to me) dresser from the back of the Tardis.

Mom helped me move the last of the food storage into the dining room (possibly temporarily, possibly longer term, and I got managed to carefully fix some of the minor damage (known) to the dresser, so that it was safe to load up with clothes. I have the big dresser full (emptied two space bags) and the small dresser also full. Most of what is in the small dresser is linens for right now. I will be shifting the quilts and blankets to sit on top and open at least one of the other space bags and try to distribute the contents within.

Big dresser is stuffed to bursting. I ALSO cleared off a table on casters that we had in the kitchen (we'd been using it as prep area), and with Mom's permission took that for my media table. It's the perfect size to snug into the pocket behind the bookshelf and in front of the food storage. TV fits nicely, there's room for the DVD/VHS combo on one shelf, set on a wire rack so I can put either the xbox360 or ps3 below that, and the other will go on the bottom (with the gamecube etc).

I also turned the folding table the dolls have been on, and cleared that to use as a desk and sewing table as originally intended.

We did a run to Walmart and picked up some blackout curtains which I had to hand just a bit below the top of the window because there is a shelf there, but I think I have a solution for that. I will need to sleep on it. I'm pondering hanging something kind of like a valance but not, below the shelf above the window. I have fabric on hand, and can probably whip up something that will fill the gap and not look terribly out of place. I have the original tension rod from the other curtains that had been up, so I can make just a little short, gap fixer thing.

Final thing I did today was unpack ALL the dolls except Epona. I can't find my Kaiju but I think he may have ended up in my resin bits box, so I'll check that later. Failing that I will pull back down all the doll boxes and check those. @_@ I don't even know. I put the doll boxes up out of reach (unless you're on a step-stool) in the studio.

I have tentative plans this week and beyond to help Mom get that room whipped back into shape so that it is usable for crafting, quilting, etc. I'm actually quite looking forward to that.

And now I am going to bed, because it is 1am, and it's cooled down enough that I can theoretically sleep.

News flash, Texas summer is HOT.