I'm trying to do a bit better now in posting more frequently and being much less secretive. Some of you are probably going "You're secretive? REALLY?!" and you're right, I do tend towards over-sharing. At the same time though, I'm neurotic about stuff that really shouldn't be important, and I keep it to myself most of the time, making things MUCH worse.
I've realized well after the fact that I was being straight up psychotic in Texas, to a ridiculous degree all things considered. Did I have a reason to be a bit messed up? Yes. Did I have the right to be secretive and then bitter that no one understood what I was thinking/feeling? No.
So, I am going to attempt to be more open and honest. I already try to be honest but I also leave alot out when speaking to some of my family, in an attempt to keep things comfortable. Instead this creates feelings of mistrust, because it is OBVIOUS that I am NOT saying things, that I feel are important.
This is mostly touching on my last LJ entry, and nothing to do with what I really wanted to post about.
I bought new shoes. Little man has Gymnastics every Monday for now, and as part of the current household routine, his parents and I wander about the shopping center while he's learning to tumble and cartwheel and all that.
Today, I poked into Ross with Christy, and found all kinds of little gems. I ended up buying this lunchbox, for $1, and this pair of shoes, for $20. :D
This was great for me, because these shoes, which I bought back in September '09 bit the bullet a couple of months ago. I wore them hard, every day, to work, everywhere, and they wore out super fast. Luckily I still had a pair of red vans that were relatively still together (and now are beat to hell) that I had been wearing in the meantime. I still need to buy a pair soley for work, cause I don't want these to wear out as fast as the last pair, but I'm pleased none-the-less.
So yep, new shoes, new lunchbox, and I'm going to try to be more open and post more often from here on out. :]
Oh, and I had another stupid, "I've lost weight?" moment today. It was just the right temperature today for one of my thin rainbow hoodies layered with a t-shirt, and when I put one on, I was alarmed at how loose it was. My initial thought was that it had stretched out badly in the wash somehow.. Again. I thought that several months ago about my 'fatty' jeans, rather than the more obvious that perhaps I had begun to lose weight.
So, I continue to be an idiot, and oblivious in that regard. In my defense, I have been puffy lately from being sick, and hormonal crap, so.. I don't LOOK any slimmer in the face. My clothes all hang weird now though. I desperately need to buy a couple three new pairs of jeans.. Next paycheck probably.