Pictures!

It's been a little while since I posted photographic proof of my existence. So here:


My hair has grown a bit and then I cut it. So now instead of solid bleached stripes, I have.. blond highlights, sort of. I kind of like it.

I am a little outraged at the moment. TMI for a minute here. I haven't gotten a regular period since it started. Due to stress, hormonal issues, and who knows what else, it's been something I get a few times a year. Last I had one, was December-ish, then minor spotting last month. My body has decided to make up for lost time. I rarely cramp, get fatigue, or any other of those obnoxious symptoms. Today I feel exhausted, sore, bloated, headachey, the works. DO NOT WANT. I was fine with a sporadic cycle. It may have the reason I could never conceive (tests weren't conclusive) but I can't be sure. I don't like it. I said so to Littlest Sis, and she laughed (but not maliciously) and told me it was normal. She's right of course but I'm still a bit outraged. That's enough of that whining though.

I finally got some pictures uploaded (hence the above, of me). None of Declan or Elli because I forgot. I do have some of Ichigo with the Sei Tenshi Jared won, and my School C head Onigiri. Also Phelan, who used to be Reggie, who used to be Gabe. @_@ Phelan is an Irish name that means 'Wolf' and Phelan is a puppy boy. Or, rather he is now. I made him fluffy puppy ears and a tail. That's enough chatter though. Pictures!






And Ichigo, Squee, and Phelan. The head is Onigiri.



And, in unrelated, but relevance news, Nick tells me that he's finally filed papers for Divorce. I guess getting the contract signed lit a fire under his butt. He apparently filed online through a proxy service? It sounds suspicious. Mom, can I scan and send you the papers to have a lawyer friend look over, maybe? I don't trust an internet company that lets you file for divorce in another state, online.

Doing Okay. :3

Okay to clarify on my last post, Nick hasn't dumped Brittany (Ti-Chan) or vice versa yet. I honestly don't think it will work but I don't really care either way. I'm done with him regardless.

And today (Tuesday) we FINALLY got that protective contract signed and notarized. I'll be sending copies out after the 15th when I've got more than $10 to my name. If there are no objections, I'll send copies to Mom and each sister. If you don't want a copy that's fine, but this is just in case, to cover my butt.

That covers that for now. I'll leave him alone for a few days and then ask him what he's decided about how I'm going home (U-Haul, or airplane).

In Doll News, Christy got back from New York Dolpa (A Volks event that I'd love to attend next year) with a doll head for me. It's alot less creepy than it sounds, and it's a head that is pretty hard to get ahold of, since you can only get it at Volks Dolpas (A dolpa is like a huge party with classes you can take to learn how to assemble, paint, and care for your dolls, as well as buying clothing, accessories and a few special dolls there.) and Events, so I'm thrilled beyond words. I'll try to do a picture post soon. I need to take some pictures, and them toddle over to Panera bread one morning to upload and post them. Or at least upload them.

Jared, Christy's brother, won a one of a kind doll called a Sei Tenshi, that is super rare, since you can only receive them as gifts direct from the company. It's really cute with a sleepy face, and little pink wings and hair. It's extra special for him since it was his first Dolpa, and his birthday is this Friday. I need to get pictures of her because she is tiny and precious, and I need photographs to love on for after he goes back to Tennessee, and I come back to Texas. I've made just some undies for her at the moment and I'm still plotting to figure out what other kind of clothes I can make, accounting for her wings that are actually attached to her, rather than the kind that snap on and off with magnets.

All in all, I'm doing pretty well at the moment. I hope ya'll are too.

My ex(in progress) is a lying cheating clown.. but we already knew this.

I am angrier this late night than I have been since late December, early January, when Nick told me he wanted a divorce.

He had some time off coming but wasn't sure of the dates and told me it might start June 6th-ish. I wanted to go and get that contract signed FINALLY and he said he would if he got the time off. Not only did he not inform me that his time off started (6 DAYS AGO) but he's going out of town to visit his Dad in the morning and his leave ends when he returns on Sunday.

Initially, I was so enraged that I hung up and told him I'd talk to him again later. Then after about five minutes I decided to call him back and scream at him a bit. He knew that was coming, so he let the phone ring the first time then turned it off so that it went straight to voicemail. On my third attempt, his NEW girl called me on her cell phone asking in an annoyingly sweet voice (totally false sugar coating sweet) what I needed. I told her to give him the phone, and she refused. I told her again, to give him the phone, and she said "Well he's in the shower." I told her to give him the *insert profanity* phone whether he was in the shower or not, and she said very snippily "I am NOT going to interrupt his shower. You can talk to him later." I told her that she had damn well better give him the *insert more profanities* phone or I was going to walk over and start throwing punches. She refused again and I hung up on her.

I walked back up the stairs and asked Christy's brother (who is visiting at the moment) if he wouldn't mind driving me over there, and he kindly obliged. As I was getting into the car, Nick called asking me what I wanted. I told him not to go anywhere because I was coming over. He tried to convince me not to, and I hung up.

When we pulled in, he was standing in the parking lot looking sullen. I thanked Jared (Christy's brother) and he told me to call when I needed a ride back. My phone battery died about then.

I walked inside with Nick, waited until the door was closed, and screamed at him for a period of time. I didn't check my watch or anything but I basically called him on being a lying cheating son-of-a-gun, and if I had a curse jar, I'd have needed to put about $100 in there from this.

Basically I screamed at him like I've been wanting to since December, but I've been holding back because I thought maybe, just maybe, we could have a civil separation and divorce. He pouted like a five year old boy and tried to make excuses. I called him on delaying signing this contract, and he complained but finally agreed he would.

I threatened (and plan to follow through) that if he didn't get the day off to get this done (LIKE WE COULD HAVE THIS WEEK) that I would go storming down to his work and cause him all kinds of hell, even if it left him homeless or completely screwed for life. I told him I was sick of his bull manure and if he wanted me out of his life, then he DAMN WELL better do what it takes.
After a bit more of the same I finally calmed down, loved on Decke, and called for a ride back to Christy's. I'm still very very angry, but I don't want to worry Christy because she leaves for New York in the morning. I'm watching Michael her son, over the weekend.

Please, as always keep me in your prayers.

Thank you Jenni, for giving me the strength to finally tear into him like he deserves.

Doing Better.

So, I'm doing considerably better than last time I posted. I mean not a ton has changed but I'm feeling better.

I've been making a laptop bag that is turning out nicely and colorful and such. When it's all done, I'll take and post pictures. I hope everyone is doing well.