Ichigo is awesome.

I've gotten kind of bad about posting regularly. I took a week of vacation in April and spent the whole week listless and aggravated. I kept trying to figure out what to do with my LONG day, and ended up staring at my computer screen in frustration, or playing the same video games for hours, but annoyed about it. I wish I was taking that vacation time in like a month. Each time I've stepped down the Lithium (twice now) my head gets clearer. It feels like my head has been wrapped in cotton, and I'm peeling it away and can finally breathe.

Last night, for the first time in I don't know how long, I actually played with Ichigo. I pulled him down off my MSD bench, and changed his eyes back to his rainbow eyes, changed his clothes, his wig, and just looked at him, at his faceup, his hands, his tiny sculpted belly button.

I love all of my dolls, but Ichigo is particularly special. He was my third doll, and the second that I thought I would never ever have a chance to get. He doesn't have a rare irreplaceable (Rollingpumpkin) faceup like Elli, so I've always been more comfortable handling him, and after the limited posing of the old Dream of Doll body and the Customhouse Little Junior body, I was incredibly charmed by his similar but more charming in every way body. The Little Junior body is beautiful but doesn't pose well, and the Dream of Doll body was limited and seemed featureless in comparison.

Ichigo is also incredibly special in that he is the only doll from the Nick/Brittany era that is not completely tainted with bad memories. I had a rocky bit with him, when I was living in Texas and everything was in flux, but after all this time, of the six that I had at the time, I don't touch two of them at all, I traded one away, I completely made one of them over, TWICE, and the other had a major identity crisis before I was able to deal with them again. Ichigo had a rough patch and slowly as I've gotten to a better place, the little spark that made him special has returned to brightness.

I was going to take photos but I'm tired of taking photos indoors in the dark, and it's grey and rainy today so I can't get good shots outside. I will try and get photos this weekend I think, and maybe play around a bit with some of the other dolls.