Saturday, April 23, 2016

30 Day BJD Meme Day 30

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 30: Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

I have been to several doll meetups and scheduled several myself when I first moved out to Virginia. I did enjoy them until I met the person that nearly destroyed the hobby for me, and did destroy my marriage at one of the meetups. They are no longer in the hobby thank goodness, and I look forward to attending future meetups in Texas with Mom and Faythe.


And that is it! That is the last question of the 30 Day BJD Meme. I actually completed it this time. :D

Friday, April 22, 2016

30 Day BJD Meme Day 29

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 29: Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!

Ichigo likes to go and look out at the lake.



30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

Thursday, April 21, 2016

Mania

I shared this on Ravelry, Tuesday in my bipolar support group but I felt it was worth sharing elsewhere too.

"I was describing how Mania feels in my psych class this morning as a bees nest buzzing loudly, while juggling bowling balls and chainsaws that are on fire. It looks dangerous, it might feel exciting but overall it’s exhausting and we may end up badly hurt if we aren’t very careful. My teacher (retired psychologist) and my roommate agreed it was an apt description of how it feels."

Many people gloss over this aspect of the disorder because we GET SO MUCH DONE. We are capable of channeling inhuman amounts of energy for a brief period, our work output is greatly increased, our multitasking somehow works wonderfully, and when that Mania wears off many people find themselves having made dangerous and reckless decisions, ruined relationships, and losing their jobs because they can't maintain that inhuman pace they had while manic.

I have had many years to carefully cultivate a safety network, and practice impossible self control, and I am one of the lucky ones, because even though there is no medicine out there that helps my mania, I am alive, medicine compliant, and relatively healthy. While manic I still bother to go to work and/or school, despite lack of sleep and inability to adequately communicate.

I am lucky, and I am loved.

30 Day BJD Meme Day 28

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 28: Post a crazy/silly pose!

I'm not sure that I have any crazy or silly poses. This is what I came up with from my photobucket. I think October looks a bit like Success Baby in this shot.


29) Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!
30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

Wednesday, April 20, 2016

30 Day BJD Meme Day 27

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 27: Do you have a favorite out of your own dolls? (Don’t worry, we won’t tell the others ;D)

Ichigo is my not-so-secret favorite of the bunch. He gets the big wardrobe and more than one pair of shoes, and lots more accessories and play time compared to the others.



28) Post a crazy/silly pose!
29) Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!
30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Twenty-six Questions.

Borrowed from a couple of different people.

Twenty-six things about me...
A- Age: 32
B- Biggest fear: Being alone. I appreciate intentional solitude, but I can not function alone for longer than a day or two.
C- Current time: 5:58am
D- Drink you last had: Water
E- Every day starts with: Peeling out of bed and stumbling around until I am actually awake.
F- Favorite song: My "Favorite song" playlist has 1500 songs currently.
G- Ghosts, are they real? Yes.
H- Hometown: Arlington, Texas.
I- In love with: Romantically? No one. I have a harmless crush, and plenty of friends though.
J- Jealous of: Anyone who has it together.
K- Killed someone? Not that I am aware of.
L- Last time you cried?: Recently, maybe a week ago. I cried enough that both Osaka and Ringo were distressed and tried to soothe me. It came on suddenly and passed after about a day.
M- Middle name: Mathias.
N- Number of siblings: Four sisters by blood, three step brothers, and a handful of in-laws.
O- One wish: Long term stability.
P- Person you last called: Mom to wish her a bappy birthday.
Q- Question you're always asked: How old ARE you anyway? (then responded with) NO YOU'RE NOT.
R- Reason to smile: I have people who love me enough to rearrange their lives to make sure that I am okay.
S- Song last sung: I was singing Adele's cover of Lovesong at the busstop last night.
T- Time you woke up: 3:41am
U- Unicorns Real or Fake: Almost definitely were real, and are currently extinct.
V- Vacation destination: England, Scotland, Wales, and Ireland.
W- Worst habit: Talking over people. It's not at all intentional, and it's worse if I'm manic, but it's a struggle.
X- X-Rays you've had: Feet, back, neck, chest. Lots of the last because of my history of pneumonia.
Y- Your favorite food: Cheese crackers.
Z- Zodiac sign: Cancer with Virgo influences.

30 Day BJD Meme Day 26

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 26: Done your own faceups? (Again, do you think you’d do that?)

I have done some of my faceups, though I prefer either company faceups or having someone else paint them up for me. While I am technically capable, my hands shake badly and I tend not to be happy with the results. So, Osaka has painted several of my newer acquisitions and otherwise I order them with faceups.

Two of the dolls I have done myself are Doran and Reji, though Osaka painted Reji's tongue.



27) Do you have a favorite out of your own dolls? (Don’t worry, we won’t tell the others ;D)
28) Post a crazy/silly pose!
29) Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!
30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

Monday, April 18, 2016

30 Day BJD Meme Day 25

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 25: Have you ever modded a doll? (Do you think that you would?)

Yes, I modded Innis's eyes to be more open. It was both incredibly satisfying and terrifying, because the Vampire Rolly Faceplate was an event head/face and not easily replaced. On the other hand the sculpt ended up perfect for the character so it worked out.



26) Done your own faceups? (Again, do you think you’d do that?)
27) Do you have a favorite out of your own dolls? (Don’t worry, we won’t tell the others ;D)
28) Post a crazy/silly pose!
29) Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!
30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

Sunday, April 17, 2016

30 Day BJD Meme Day 24

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 24: What about your favorite part of the hobby?

My favorite part of the hobby is weaving intricate stories between doll characters and then finding or making clothing and accessories to suit the stories. Some of my favorite dolls are character dolls by other people who have written alternate universe fiction that explains why their character is slightly different than in original fandom, and also how they fit into the world.


25) Have you ever modded a doll? (Do you think that you would?)
26) Done your own faceups? (Again, do you think you’d do that?)
27) Do you have a favorite out of your own dolls? (Don’t worry, we won’t tell the others ;D)
28) Post a crazy/silly pose!
29) Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!
30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

Saturday, April 16, 2016

GoFundMe Update

First of all, I want to thank everyone who has been able to help in any way with our GoFundMe. In addition to the financial contribution, I have had some people in different communities send food, and help by directly paying for some of the prescriptions.

I have one last prescription that desperately needs filled (I am out and overdue on doses), but this medication is the most expensive by far at approximately $150. This is also one that not taking REALLY screws up everything. I wasn't exaggerating when I said that all of my prescriptions were very seriously mandatory maintenance prescriptions.

This would be somewhat less of an issue if Osaka's not-ex-enough husband were doing as he is supposed to and sending even minimal financial support but he is currently dodging calls, ignoring texts, and happily posting on facebook as though nothing is wrong.

Which leaves us in the precarious position of having our phone and internet about to be cut off (because seriously the money he sends goes to regular bills as well as food), and not having much in the way of food in the house still despite the help that we have received from our friends.

I really hate to ask, but even $5 and $10 donations would be incredibly helpful. Osaka says to keep the phone/internet on, we need between $80-100, depending on whether they charge additional late fees, so if we can get together about $250 in total in the next two to three days, that would take care of the most important things and we can then worry about making what we have, work for food for us and the dogs.

I haven't mentioned on the GoFundMe exactly the dynamic here, but our priorities are life-important medicine, food for dogs and Ringo, and then bills, and then food for us adults. We're not being reckless, we're just trying to keep things moving.

Thank you to everyone who has been able to help, whether by signal boosting or sending food, sending money, all of it is helpful, and we really appreciate it.

30 Day BJD Meme Day 23

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 23: Is there a part of the BJD hobby that you dislike?

Oh my yes. The drama is just wretched. I have spent many years carefully cultivating my friendslist and trying to remain drama free. I just want to see beautiful dolls and enjoy my friends enjoying their dolls. I do not want to get caught up in drama regarding so-and-so totally stealing your doll's style. There are only so many wig, eye, and clothing combinations, so if you both have company default faceups there is a small chance that at some point someone else will have a doll that looks a bit like yours. It happens, and rarely is it intentional. There is no need for drama about it.


24) What about your favorite part of the hobby?
25) Have you ever modded a doll? (Do you think that you would?)
26) Done your own faceups? (Again, do you think you’d do that?)
27) Do you have a favorite out of your own dolls? (Don’t worry, we won’t tell the others ;D)
28) Post a crazy/silly pose!
29) Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!
30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

Friday, April 15, 2016

30 Day BJD Meme Day 22

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 22: What’s your favorite doll scale prop?

My favorite doll scaled prop is Ichigo's laptop. It's the perfect size to be a little netbook for an SD, or a nicely sized laptop for an MSD, and it came from a Target Our Generation doll accessory pack. I absolutely love it.


23) Is there a part of the BJD hobby that you dislike?
24) What about your favorite part of the hobby?
25) Have you ever modded a doll? (Do you think that you would?)
26) Done your own faceups? (Again, do you think you’d do that?)
27) Do you have a favorite out of your own dolls? (Don’t worry, we won’t tell the others ;D)
28) Post a crazy/silly pose!
29) Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!
30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

Thursday, April 14, 2016

Retail stories and I hurt my hand.

So I was speaking to Osaka this evening after school, and was reminded of a funny/weird story from when I was working at Target. I was working on the Sales Floor and a customer approached me and asked "Do you carry of that faggy yogurt?"

To which I responded, "Excuse me?" and he continued, pulling out his phone and looking at a list "You know, FAGGY, F-A-G-E. The greek yogurt."

blinked and smiled and asked "Fage? (pronounced fah-yay, as the commercials do) Yes we carry that brand." The customer visibly wilted, and looked kind of embarrassed and unsure at the same time, and he asked if I could please show him where it was, which I did.

So that happened which I was reminded of from a recent Fage commercial where they REALLY enunciated it FAH-YAY.

Then I accidentally dislocated my right thumb. I fixed it, but I didn't realize I was hyper extending it (I was trying to gently stretch it, my whole hand is/was swollen from temperature change) until I felt a weird tickle on my arm, which turned out to be my dislocated thumb. I IMMEDIATELY started massaging the joints (I'm double-jointed and used to hyper flexibility) trying to figure out which joint I had messed up, and comparing it to my left thumb, and after a moment it made an audible pop as the tendons snapped back into place, and it swelled up.

This is especially aggravating as I was already wearing my compression gloves, which I thought offered slightly more protection, but apparently they don't protect against not paying attention and dislocating your thumb because high pain tolerance meets hyper-mobility. So..

I can't take more ibuprofen yet, and iced my hand instead, which hurt like hell and I have bruises developing on the palm of my hand and also on the back of my hand where the tendons snapped back. It hurts.

I would like very much to brace or splint it to prevent further damage but I'm pretty sure an ace bandage would cause more soft tissue damage, and I don't have a wrist brace that offers thumb support where the thumb joins the hand. Cause that is the joint I dislocated. I can't recommend it.

Also I noticed that the tips of my fingers are beginning to be shaped oddly, like the joints are twisting or something. So that's something to keep an eye on..

30 Day BJD Meme Day 21

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 21: One doll you love, but will never (probably) buy?

Iplehouse SID Claude. I wanted the Elemental Guardian version, and maybe someday I might think about getting one through Doll Choice, but frankly that size is just too much doll even if the face is so perfect. So, as much as I love the doll, I will probably never follow through and get him.


22) What’s your favorite doll scale prop?
23) Is there a part of the BJD hobby that you dislike?
24) What about your favorite part of the hobby?
25) Have you ever modded a doll? (Do you think that you would?)
26) Done your own faceups? (Again, do you think you’d do that?)
27) Do you have a favorite out of your own dolls? (Don’t worry, we won’t tell the others ;D)
28) Post a crazy/silly pose!
29) Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!
30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

Wednesday, April 13, 2016

30 Day BJD Meme Day 20

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 20: What is your dream doll?

I've gotten my dream doll, which was the Automail Edward Elric Jerome by Bluefairy. Other grail dolls were Volks Tsubaki, Volks Hewitt, Volks School C. At this point my dream dolls are dolls that were standards that have been discontinued. I want Luts type 1 Lishe, Soony, El, and Chiwoo. There are others on my wishlist of course but these would be the HOLY CRAP TAKE MY MONEY AND GIMME if I came across one in good repair. Bonus points if it has the original Luts faceup.


21) One doll you love, but will never (probably) buy?
22) What’s your favorite doll scale prop?
23) Is there a part of the BJD hobby that you dislike?
24) What about your favorite part of the hobby?
25) Have you ever modded a doll? (Do you think that you would?)
26) Done your own faceups? (Again, do you think you’d do that?)
27) Do you have a favorite out of your own dolls? (Don’t worry, we won’t tell the others ;D)
28) Post a crazy/silly pose!
29) Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!
30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

30 Day BJD Meme Day 19

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 19: A least favorite company?

This is hard. There are many companies that I don't have much interest in, but the heartbreaking least favorite used to be my absolute favorite. Custom House/Ai Dolls, which went under due to mismanagement, poor marketing, and the inability to fill orders and send out quality dolls. It was gut wrenching to see them go from being a well respected company to persona non grata in the course of about a year. I am pleased that Luts has picked up the rights to many of their sculpts and hope to some day have some of the dolls that I desperately wanted even in a slightly different form. Ultimately though Custom House is my least favorite because of the way they went down unapologetically in flames and their customer service went from steller to ignoring customer issues and then folding.

I still love my Custom House dolls, Elli, and Émile, but I also barely touch them because of my fear of damaging truly irreplaceable dolls, and the drama associated with their parent company.


20) What is your dream doll?
21) One doll you love, but will never (probably) buy?
22) What’s your favorite doll scale prop?
23) Is there a part of the BJD hobby that you dislike?
24) What about your favorite part of the hobby?
25) Have you ever modded a doll? (Do you think that you would?)
26) Done your own faceups? (Again, do you think you’d do that?)
27) Do you have a favorite out of your own dolls? (Don’t worry, we won’t tell the others ;D)
28) Post a crazy/silly pose!
29) Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!
30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

Monday, April 11, 2016

30 Day BJD Meme Day 18

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 18: Do you have a favorite company?

Despite their US site having gone wonky, my favorite is probably Volks. They may not be the amazingly engineered Fairyland super poseable dolls, but they are sturdy, stand rock solid, and they have a pleasant heft to them. Additionally even a very loosely strung doll is capable of holding most poses because of the way Volks has designed their bodies.

The only body I really don't like is the MSD swarrico body, which Amelia has. I feel that it poses in a slightly inferior way to the standard MSD body, and what it gains in the "cute sit" ability, it loses in general poseability. I also think that Volks dolls are just plain prettier in person than they can ever be in photos. Dolls I would have never thought I would like are stunning in person, even unpainted, and that is a HUGE deal for me.

I don't have a photo of ALL the Volks dolls together but I think I have one of all the Volks MSDs including Ringo's Ken.

19) A least favorite company?
20) What is your dream doll?
21) One doll you love, but will never (probably) buy?
22) What’s your favorite doll scale prop?
23) Is there a part of the BJD hobby that you dislike?
24) What about your favorite part of the hobby?
25) Have you ever modded a doll? (Do you think that you would?)
26) Done your own faceups? (Again, do you think you’d do that?)
27) Do you have a favorite out of your own dolls? (Don’t worry, we won’t tell the others ;D)
28) Post a crazy/silly pose!
29) Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!
30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

Sunday, April 10, 2016

30 Day BJD Meme Day 17

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 17: What is your favorite item of dollie clothing?

It's hard to choose. Over the years I've gotten a large variety of clothes, and made all kinds of things on my own. I think my favorite articles of doll clothing are the handknit sweaters that Robbie got. He got a gorgeous chunky knit sweater from Osaka for Christmas (2015), and a beautiful brightly colored slim fit sweater from my Ravelry friend in Germany, Samseramsamsam, the second of which arrived the same day as Craig, my Souldoll Asiter. I think those are definitely my two favorite pieces in all of the doll clothes I have.





18) Do you have a favorite company?
19) A least favorite company?
20) What is your dream doll?
21) One doll you love, but will never (probably) buy?
22) What’s your favorite doll scale prop?
23) Is there a part of the BJD hobby that you dislike?
24) What about your favorite part of the hobby?
25) Have you ever modded a doll? (Do you think that you would?)
26) Done your own faceups? (Again, do you think you’d do that?)
27) Do you have a favorite out of your own dolls? (Don’t worry, we won’t tell the others ;D)
28) Post a crazy/silly pose!
29) Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!
30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

Saturday, April 9, 2016

30 Day BJD Meme Day 16

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 16: Can any of your crew stand on their heads? (Show us~)

I don't think so. The Littlefees are super posable but with wigs they get top heavy, and I get nervous about them falling on their faces. Reji could probably stand on his head, as Pukis are known to be capable of posing their larger counterparts are not, but I don't think I have any photos of him doing any acrobatics or hand/headstands.

17) What is your favorite item of dollie clothing?
18) Do you have a favorite company?
19) A least favorite company?
20) What is your dream doll?
21) One doll you love, but will never (probably) buy?
22) What’s your favorite doll scale prop?
23) Is there a part of the BJD hobby that you dislike?
24) What about your favorite part of the hobby?
25) Have you ever modded a doll? (Do you think that you would?)
26) Done your own faceups? (Again, do you think you’d do that?)
27) Do you have a favorite out of your own dolls? (Don’t worry, we won’t tell the others ;D)
28) Post a crazy/silly pose!
29) Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!
30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

Friday, April 8, 2016

Done. Gonna go hide and play with my dolls.

On the one hand, I have resolution which is an immense relief. On the other hand I didn't really realize how much raw emotion I have been holding back while waiting for resolution. I was perfectly calm, accepting, logical yesterday when I read the two letters from the employment commission, and then within an hour or so I promptly fell to pieces.

Triggered a migraine, cried a lot, and apologized a lot. Then I went to bed early(ish) because I just couldn't handle being awake/conscious anymore. I'm kind of here:


I had been having a mild, pleasant day. I had a peaceful morning class in psyche, attended an open mic session where my former English professor played a couple of songs, and I took some photos for him, and then I came home. Once I was.. not calm, but had the appearance of calm I threw myself into pairing down the 114 photos I had taken into seven decent photos, and sent them on to him.

I also finished sewing snaps on a t-shirt for Robbie, and I have plans of doing more sewing today. I don't want to interact with the internet. I may share photos of what I'm making Robbie if I feel up to it, but I will probably avoid the internet unless someone directly messages me or reaches out in a similar way.

I am incredibly depressed and distraught, and while nothing has changed in the grand scheme of things, I am running out of my medications, I have nothing in my bank account, and I am freaking out about how we are going to feed ourselves for the next two months.

I need to fill my script for levothyroxin 75mg daily, testosterone cyponiate 200mg vial in 10 fl oz, clonazepam 2mg daily (1mg in the morning, 1mg at night), I have about 70 doses left on my albuterol sulfate (200 metered inhalations), and I need to fill my imitrex (sumatriptan succinate 25mg) subscription, and my daily migraine medicine gabapentin (100mg, twice daily). ALL of these need filled like this week.

That adds up to about $280 in medication IF Walmart pharmacy has any discounts going on the over $100 medications. Otherwise it will be closer to $400, and we still need food. Some of these medications are roughly a month's worth. The testosterone is about 3 months worth of medication, but I just happen to have a single dose left.

I went to bed kind of hoping that I wouldn't wake up, and that is unacceptable. I just need to push through to end of May. Breathe. Keep breathing. Take medicine until it runs out and hope that I don't end up in the hospital.

30 Day BJD Meme Day 15

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 15: What does your family think of your dolls?

It's hard to say. I have a very large family, and some of them have BJDs as well. Others prefer to spend the cost of the BJD on other luxury items. I think the non-doll owners mostly feel that I am too old to play with toys in general. I could be wrong, but I'm not fussed either way. One of my sisters is very into them, Mom has her own and enjoys them, and I have extended family that collect and are passionate about BJDs.


16) Can any of your crew stand on their heads? (Show us~)
17) What is your favorite item of dollie clothing?
18) Do you have a favorite company?
19) A least favorite company?
20) What is your dream doll?
21) One doll you love, but will never (probably) buy?
22) What’s your favorite doll scale prop?
23) Is there a part of the BJD hobby that you dislike?
24) What about your favorite part of the hobby?
25) Have you ever modded a doll? (Do you think that you would?)
26) Done your own faceups? (Again, do you think you’d do that?)
27) Do you have a favorite out of your own dolls? (Don’t worry, we won’t tell the others ;D)
28) Post a crazy/silly pose!
29) Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!
30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

Thursday, April 7, 2016

GoFundMe for moving and living expenses.

Most of you are aware that I am moving to Texas this summer after I finish at TCC for the spring semester. You are also likely aware that I was fired from Lowe's for medical absences.

Lowe's tried to contest my eligibility for unemployment and I had an appointment with the Unemployment commission for a phone interview on April 1st.

I received two letters today, the first saying that I was eligible to collect unemployment starting from March 6th which was when I initially applied. This would have meant that I would receive backpay for the weeks I have been looking for work. The second letter stated that I was ineligible because my school schedule is too restrictive and does not allow for full time work. Nevermind that I was working and doing school in tandem until Lowe's fired me.

I am now truly out of options, and have set up a new GoFundMe for medical, living and moving expenses short term. I know that I will end up safely in Texas, as I have been discussing with my mother how best to go about the move, and we have been making plans, but I am in need of funds for my medicine, and to restore cell service. I actually need about $500 immediately to fill scripts for very necessary medication that I will be out of this time next week, and to buy food. This doesn't even bring into account that I need money for rent, and moving and cleaning supplies so that we can leave our apartment in good order.

This will be for living and moving expenses for the next two months or so, until my roommates and myself are safely in Tennessee, and then I head off to Texas from there.

I have exhausted every resource that is available to me here in Virginia. Any help is appreciated. I know that money may be tight for several people reading this, and I understand that. If you could signal boost that is also helpful.

We need about $500 right away for medicine and food. We will need more for moving supplies (boxes, cleaning stuff, etc) and to turn my phone back on. Every bit helps and we are all very thankful for any assistance.

This is the GoFundMe! Please feel free to link back to this PUBLIC entry in the event that anyone wants verification that I am in fact a real person.

30 Day BJD Meme Day 14

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 14: Have you ever had a floating head? What about a headless body? (What do you think you would do if you had either?)

I currently have three floating heads that need bodies, and a fourth that I need to sell. I have had three dolls including Ro that spent a large amount of time as a floating head, but did originally get bodies. For a long time my School C and Souldoll Lune heads sat on little pillows because I had characters in mind for them but either couldn't afford or couldn't find the bodies that I wanted for them. Both are whole dolls now, as Robbie and Avery, and Ro the third head that floated awhile is finally on a body that I am truly happy with.

15) What does your family think of your dolls?
16) Can any of your crew stand on their heads? (Show us~)
17) What is your favorite item of dollie clothing?
18) Do you have a favorite company?
19) A least favorite company?
20) What is your dream doll?
21) One doll you love, but will never (probably) buy?
22) What’s your favorite doll scale prop?
23) Is there a part of the BJD hobby that you dislike?
24) What about your favorite part of the hobby?
25) Have you ever modded a doll? (Do you think that you would?)
26) Done your own faceups? (Again, do you think you’d do that?)
27) Do you have a favorite out of your own dolls? (Don’t worry, we won’t tell the others ;D)
28) Post a crazy/silly pose!
29) Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!
30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

Wednesday, April 6, 2016

30 Day BJD Meme Day 13

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 13: Dollie shoes! Show us how many you have!

I hoard doll shoes. I couldn't say how many I have for certain but everyone that can wear shoes has a pair except for Reji, so I have at least 31 pairs of shoes. I know that some dolls like Ichigo and Ro have more than one pair that are definitively theirs so I'd guess I probably have 40+ pairs of shoes in varying sizes. Several years ago, I popped off everyone's shoes and took a photo, and I have more dolls and shoes now, than I did at that time. Here is the photo of what I had then.


14) Have you ever had a floating head? What about a headless body? (What do you think you would do if you had either?)
15) What does your family think of your dolls?
16) Can any of your crew stand on their heads? (Show us~)
17) What is your favorite item of dollie clothing?
18) Do you have a favorite company?
19) A least favorite company?
20) What is your dream doll?
21) One doll you love, but will never (probably) buy?
22) What’s your favorite doll scale prop?
23) Is there a part of the BJD hobby that you dislike?
24) What about your favorite part of the hobby?
25) Have you ever modded a doll? (Do you think that you would?)
26) Done your own faceups? (Again, do you think you’d do that?)
27) Do you have a favorite out of your own dolls? (Don’t worry, we won’t tell the others ;D)
28) Post a crazy/silly pose!
29) Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!
30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

A moment, for trans-awareness.

I have refrained from talking about the transphobic law passed in North Carolina, which is less than an hour's drive south from where I live. I would have continued to refrain for some time I'm sure, had I not stumbled over several subtly transphobic posts from people that I grew up with. People who knew me as a child, and know that my name and sex have been legally changed on a federal level. People who maybe should think twice about posting that someone with the misfortune of being transgendered is somehow a sexual deviant.



Let me set the record straight. I am incredibly thankful for my friends, and my family who love me, and support me as a person. I am not out to hate on anyone or pick on anyone. I just want to live my life quietly doing the things that I am passionate about, without fear of legal problems should I need to use a public restroom.

As long as time has passed and humanity has been able to track it, there have been those that would abuse the system, that would sneak into the opposite gender baths, private places, and places where people are separated by sex. There should of course be laws and regulations in place to help prevent peeping and other issues of that sort.

THAT SAID. If I or someone who happens to be trans is in a public restroom we have exactly one thing on our mind, it it is using the facilities. FULL STOP. We are human and we need to pee as much as anyone else. Sometimes more frequently because hormones change how those things work. If you are vain or ignorant enough to think my potty break is a chance for me to chat you up, you are loonytoons.

So, now that we have covered THAT. Stop being ignorant as a whole. If you are concerned, ask questions. If you want to be safe, please keep in mind that the people in most danger of being hurt in a public restroom are not children, or average adults, but those of us who just need to pee, but can't pass as male or female. Men in the ladies room! Women in the mens room! Neither of these is accurate and both of these are (understandably) met with outrage. We just need to pee. It's not about you.

I am fortunate enough that I do pass as male, which IS my legal sex at this point, and I no longer have to deal with this as much, but you better believe that it is still a terrifying experience to develop a fear of public toilets that has nothing to do with germs. I am still anxious every time I have to use a public restroom, and that is something that was never an issue until I was in my mid to late twenties.

Okay I really am done ranting now. I'm angry, and I'm scared, and I want to say, that I know that many of you are not this ignorant. If you are among those who are reading this thinking "Well of course" then this isn't directed at you, but thank you for reading. Thank you for knowing, for listening, for supporting.

Thank you to every single one of my friends who knows me for me, and loves me for me. I appreciate you, and you make life worth living.

30 Day BJD Meme Day 12

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 12: What do your friends think of your dolls/dolls in general?

Most of my friends I have met within the hobby so they are generally positive and supportive about them. Newer friends and acquaintances are sometimes weirded out, but more often impressed with the customization and variety of the dolls. Several of my non-doll friends have complimented my wardrobe choices and sewing, and others have said that I am crazy for learning to knit so that I can make doll clothes and accessories in a new way, but all in all my friends are either supportive or quiet.


13) Dollie shoes! Show us how many you have!
14) Have you ever had a floating head? What about a headless body? (What do you think you would do if you had either?)
15) What does your family think of your dolls?
16) Can any of your crew stand on their heads? (Show us~)
17) What is your favorite item of dollie clothing?
18) Do you have a favorite company?
19) A least favorite company?
20) What is your dream doll?
21) One doll you love, but will never (probably) buy?
22) What’s your favorite doll scale prop?
23) Is there a part of the BJD hobby that you dislike?
24) What about your favorite part of the hobby?
25) Have you ever modded a doll? (Do you think that you would?)
26) Done your own faceups? (Again, do you think you’d do that?)
27) Do you have a favorite out of your own dolls? (Don’t worry, we won’t tell the others ;D)
28) Post a crazy/silly pose!
29) Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!
30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

Monday, April 4, 2016

Ravelry Spring Yarn Swap 2016

I took part in a Yarn Swap on Ravelry in the ABJD group, and my swap package arrived today in the post. I decided to have some fun with it and do a photostory of it being opened.




















Thank you MissMorningGlory! I was delighted by the yarn and treats, and am pleased to say that all of the yarn is soft and touchable, no worries! I hope that you are similarly pleased with what I sent your way! :)

Dolls in the images belong to me, with the exclusion of Severus and Lorelei, who belong to Osaka.
Pictured are Illusion Spirit Cangxie on Doll Family H body (Severus)
Volks Yo-SD Suzuna 2nd (Lorelei)
Volks MSD Ko-Tenshi Tsubaki (Ichigo)
Volks School C on SD10 boy body (Robbie)
Crobidoll E-line Tori (Owen)
Fairyland Littlefee Leah (Sarabelle)

Cross posted to the family blog, livejournal, and Den of Angels.

30 Day BJD Meme Day 11

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 11: Free day! Pick something you love about the hobby to share.

This is something of a different thought. Almost all of my current friends, many of the friendships years old, are with people that I have met through BJDs. I would never have guessed that my closest friends would be people that I had originally met online through a hobby forum but it's turned out to be true. I remain amazed at the quality of friends that I have made, and the diversity even within the group. BJDs have brought me an entirely new world of people and that is a beautiful thing.


12) What do your friends think of your dolls/dolls in general?
13) Dollie shoes! Show us how many you have!
14) Have you ever had a floating head? What about a headless body? (What do you think you would do if you had either?)
15) What does your family think of your dolls?
16) Can any of your crew stand on their heads? (Show us~)
17) What is your favorite item of dollie clothing?
18) Do you have a favorite company?
19) A least favorite company?
20) What is your dream doll?
21) One doll you love, but will never (probably) buy?
22) What’s your favorite doll scale prop?
23) Is there a part of the BJD hobby that you dislike?
24) What about your favorite part of the hobby?
25) Have you ever modded a doll? (Do you think that you would?)
26) Done your own faceups? (Again, do you think you’d do that?)
27) Do you have a favorite out of your own dolls? (Don’t worry, we won’t tell the others ;D)
28) Post a crazy/silly pose!
29) Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!
30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

Sunday, April 3, 2016

30 Day BJD Meme Day 10

30 Day BJD Meme Day

10: Post a picture of a doll and an animal!

This is still my very favorite photo of any animal with a doll. It's hands down, the best photo I've ever taken of Decke. He was still a kitten in this, or at least not fully grown. He was fond of cuddling up with the dolls. I never had to worry one bit about him running off with doll stuff or biting. Decke was an angel.



11) Free day! Pick something you love about the hobby to share.
12) What do your friends think of your dolls/dolls in general?
13) Dollie shoes! Show us how many you have!
14) Have you ever had a floating head? What about a headless body? (What do you think you would do if you had either?)
15) What does your family think of your dolls?
16) Can any of your crew stand on their heads? (Show us~)
17) What is your favorite item of dollie clothing?
18) Do you have a favorite company?
19) A least favorite company?
20) What is your dream doll?
21) One doll you love, but will never (probably) buy?
22) What’s your favorite doll scale prop?
23) Is there a part of the BJD hobby that you dislike?
24) What about your favorite part of the hobby?
25) Have you ever modded a doll? (Do you think that you would?)
26) Done your own faceups? (Again, do you think you’d do that?)
27) Do you have a favorite out of your own dolls? (Don’t worry, we won’t tell the others ;D)
28) Post a crazy/silly pose!
29) Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!
30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

Saturday, April 2, 2016

30 Day BJD Meme Day 9

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 9: What is your least favorite size?

Anything larger than 61cm is too much doll for me. Anything smaller than 14cm is too small. I think for least favorite I would have to go with the 65cm+ dolls. They are a literal pain for me to handle, ending in joint dislocation frequently from lifting and moving them, and yes I do have fragile joints but it should not be a matter of expecting injury if you want to play with a doll.


They are beautiful of course, but simply too big to be feasible for play. My bigger boys are, sit and play with them boys, rather than, tote along for meetups or take outdoor photos types.

10) Post a picture of a doll and an animal!
11) Free day! Pick something you love about the hobby to share.
12) What do your friends think of your dolls/dolls in general?
13) Dollie shoes! Show us how many you have!
14) Have you ever had a floating head? What about a headless body? (What do you think you would do if you had either?)
15) What does your family think of your dolls?
16) Can any of your crew stand on their heads? (Show us~)
17) What is your favorite item of dollie clothing?
18) Do you have a favorite company?
19) A least favorite company?
20) What is your dream doll?
21) One doll you love, but will never (probably) buy?
22) What’s your favorite doll scale prop?
23) Is there a part of the BJD hobby that you dislike?
24) What about your favorite part of the hobby?
25) Have you ever modded a doll? (Do you think that you would?)
26) Done your own faceups? (Again, do you think you’d do that?)
27) Do you have a favorite out of your own dolls? (Don’t worry, we won’t tell the others ;D)
28) Post a crazy/silly pose!
29) Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!
30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

Friday, April 1, 2016

30 Day BJD Meme Day 8

30 Day BJD Meme

Day 8: What is your favorite size?

My favorite size is MSD, hands down. I love how easy they are to handle, how little fabric it takes to make elaborate custom outfits, and how easy to carry they are, if you are inclined to take one out and about. I also love that it's fairly easy to find in scale props for them.



9) What is your least favorite size?
10) Post a picture of a doll and an animal!
11) Free day! Pick something you love about the hobby to share.
12) What do your friends think of your dolls/dolls in general?
13) Dollie shoes! Show us how many you have!
14) Have you ever had a floating head? What about a headless body? (What do you think you would do if you had either?)
15) What does your family think of your dolls?
16) Can any of your crew stand on their heads? (Show us~)
17) What is your favorite item of dollie clothing?
18) Do you have a favorite company?
19) A least favorite company?
20) What is your dream doll?
21) One doll you love, but will never (probably) buy?
22) What’s your favorite doll scale prop?
23) Is there a part of the BJD hobby that you dislike?
24) What about your favorite part of the hobby?
25) Have you ever modded a doll? (Do you think that you would?)
26) Done your own faceups? (Again, do you think you’d do that?)
27) Do you have a favorite out of your own dolls? (Don’t worry, we won’t tell the others ;D)
28) Post a crazy/silly pose!
29) Post a picture of your dolls exploring the outside world!
30) Have you ever been to a doll meetup? Did you enjoy it/do you plan to go to one in the future?

About Me

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I'm Rory or Rorek in most places. I design, sew, and craft, primarily for my Asian Ball-Jointed Dolls. I also dabble in interior design, but I'm a little out of practice.

I post about the things I enjoy, which are sewing, photographing my dolls, designing new outfits, knitting, which I started in September of 2008, thanks to my Mom, and occasionally drawing, or painting.

I also post about Life Events and how they affect me and those that I love.

Currently I am living in DFW, Texas in the USA and working towards a degree in Theology.